briiiing, briiiing. hey that’s the phone ringing. the number on the caller ID doesn’t look familiar. who could it be? only one way to find out. “hello”…
that’s how it started. i got a somewhat random phone call wednesday as i was driving to practice. i say somewhat because, the caller probably didn’t think it too random, but to me it was pretty ‘out of the blue’. the caller, an HR type person for a company in des moines. the reason for the call: to inform me of an employment opportunity in the twin cities. you may be thinking, that’s a good thing. i pretty much am thinking the same thing, cuz i pretty much am in desperate need of a job – but a job that will fit in my schedule. what do you know, this job has the possibility of doing just that. i have not been offered the job yet. i’ve been given a ‘thinking period’ and a phone call will come sometime next week. a little about it, from what i got: basically it’s a financial advisor type job – i go visit (mostly elderly) peeps in the cities who’re looking at their financial situation and feel it needs a facelift. that’s cool, i can talk to people. i wouldn’t have to set up appointments, nor would i have to do much paperwork. i’d pretty much just be the guy who visits and answers questions they would have – at least this is how it’s sounding to date.
– a varying schedule, mostly during the day. would, for the most part, not interfere with football, lifting and/or skool
– income, that’s a good thing
– i would learn more about the financial world, knowledge is good
– i’d have another something on my plate. something to do and to keep me busy and active.
– it’d be different every time. i don’t see this being too monotonous, different people, different places. the variation is a good thing, specially for a guy who’s never been diagnosed, but probably has ADD (or ADHD, or whatever the crap they’re callin it these days) to some large degree
– i’d have to miss a week of football, lifting and skool to go down to kansas city for training.
– it’d be another something on my plate. maybe too much??
– i’d probably have to cut my hair and look somewhat respectable (ok, this isn’t a huge one, but it’s not easy making me look respectable)
– i might’ve already pissed the opportunity away. in the conversation, i mentioned my strong desire to play football. maybe i shouldn’t have. where does honesty in one’s #1 priority and dream fit into a situation like this?
maybe there’re more cons and pros that i’m not writing down… but i figure i’d throw it out and see what the peeps who read this think – i’m all ears (eyes) for advice here…
on a similar side note: i’m not sure what i’m doing. i know that i want to play football. i know that i’m enjoying culinary skool muchly. i know that i love a LOT of different aspects of life and i want to play with stuffs. i know that i enjoy learning new things. i know that i don’t know a whole bunch about any one aspect of life or skill or talent, but i know a little bit about a TON of things. i know that i have a short attention span and i get bored with things if they’re monotonous and unvarying. i know that i’ve got a knack for leadership positions.
i don’t know what i want to be when i grow up. i don’t know what i’m going to do with my culinary certificate when i’m done. i don’t know if i’ll ever use that BS in cs i got from USD. i don’t know what country i’ll be in next year. i don’t know who that special someone is. i don’t know what else i don’t know.
the reason i bring this up is cuz part of the ‘homework’ for my portfolio class is all about what i WANT to do, what my dreams and desires entail, etc. the more i think of it, the less i think i’m goin in the right direction and the more i realize my dreams and desires are somewhat contradictory. is there such a thing as a quarterlife crises – a state of ultimate confusion and lack of direction?? cuz i think i’m in it.